As I sit here doing my literature homework for tomorrow I am having a very deep moment or two of thought. I mean it's poetry. It's loaded with deep things to think about and all that symbolism and everything got me thinking about why it was that when I was in this place which I absolutely love and that is so much better then MN or WI could ever be that I don't feel content that I don't feel complete. What I realized is that without someone I love around to share it with, it means nothing.
Without those who I have grown up around and who I have grown to love at school over the past couple of years I feel incomplete and alone. It's something I've always known but I'd always hoped that it wasn't completely true, I hoped that I would be able to go off by myself and make things work. But no. I am forever going to be someone who has to have at least one person who matters by her side in order for everything to make sense, for life to be in order.
I think another thing that makes this so hard is watching every one start new relationships or end old ones while I am single. While I am okay with this fact and know that it is completely up to God what happens in that part of my life, at the same time I cannot help but what to find that someone to spend every day with that someone to talk to just because I thought of him.
Michael leaving for Afghanistan in a week or two tops is not helping either. I'm missing him and he's not even there yet. I'm afraid for him and I'm guessing he's afraid too. I know there are going to be many people praying for his safety and that because of all of our faith God will be there holding him in His hand.
In other news...
Today was the Huelga General which basically just means the big national strike in Spain. This forced CIEE to cancel our classes and allowed all of us students to bask in the sun of the gorgeous beaches of Alicante!!! I was literally on the beach from 11am until 5pm, glorious. My new friend Samantha and I spent the entire time eating, talking or sleeping. So much for the idea of homework on the beach. I was yet again mistaken as a european as well which is very nice!! My Spanish is improving at an alarmingly fast rate. Watch out if you thought I spoke fast English before (DAD) my spanish is going to be about 5 times faster minimum. Granted you couldn't understand that slow anyway. haha. My classes are going great and I absolutely love them. If I were not a junior who is going to be abroad all year I would be changing my majors from French and Spanish to French and Sociology with a minor in Spanish. The Society of Spain class I have is definitely the highlight of my week. I am very disappointed that I only have it once this week even though that means that I got to sit on the beach!
Last weekend was my trip to Granada. It was very uneventful yet fun and filled with many more experiences. We visited La Alhambra which is where all of the palaces in the city are found including one which was King Ferdinand and Queen Isabelle's in 1492 when she okayed the sailing of Columbus. Most of the area has a arab flair to it and it's very interesting to see how the muslim and catholic were intermixed in this area before the monarchy won the battle. All of the food in the weekend was good and I ate all of my meals which was 7 give or take for less than 15 euro if I'm adding everything up right. This includes 2 ice creams and many alcoholic beverages.
Hugs from Spain and more spam to come.
Even though you're doing Spain solo, you'll have me while in Cannes, and I'm sure they'll be two completely different experiences but both will create special memories that you'll never forget :)
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